Isn't that the name of a Whitesnake song? You know the rock band from the 80's?? I think I had their album (yes I said album, I'm just that old).
Anyway, back to the reason for my post. So I'm doing it again. Starting all over. Again. What is it you ask? That dreadful thing that most women complain about their whole lives........Losing Weight.
In your early 20's if you want to lose weight you can stop eating for a few days and lose what you need. At my age it takes a ton of work. It means watching what I eat, how much I eat, when I eat, and making sure I exercise on top of that. By exercising I don't mean a nice walk around the block once a week. I mean getting up early, every day of the week, and sweating like a pig!
I'm not asking to get down to what I was in high school. That's just not realistic. But I do want to be healthy again. My cholesterol is 243. That's not a good number no matter how you look at it. I want to be able to jog a mile without feeling like I'm going to be sick & die after the first few steps. Actually I take that back...at this point I'd just like to be able to jog.
So why is it that I keep gaining the weight back you ask? It's easy; I love food. I think about food all the time. I think today about what I'm going to eat tomorrow. I always have food on my mind. Am I always hungry? Nope. I just love food. It makes me happy. It makes me feel good. I Love Food.
The last few years I've really noticed that my weight effects more than my physical health. It effects my mental health as well. When I'm overweight I have a harder time being happy. When I'm losing weight my moods are better. And when I'm close to the weight I want to be it's terrific! I could be in the best mood and then catch a glance of myself in the mirror and I'm depressed for days. Everything I do, everything I feel is related to how I look and what I weigh. I know it's not healthy and I know people say to love the body you're in no matter what....I just can't.
It's a good thing I don't have daughters! I'd mess them up for life!
So that's my rant. My thoughts for the day. Time to run. If I don't start my exercising now I'll never make it back in time for dessert.
